Friday, July 28, 2006.

I had fun in school today.

Beatrice & Xiu Ling are two terribly sweet but mischievous people, seriously.

BYE!

Off to read stuff for disgusting Portrait. (:

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Wednesday, July 26, 2006.

Someone said I was bitchy today.

To think of it, what he said is true.

I was rather rude to him I think.

AYE. Never mind.

I got my South Korea eraser and Bo Wei was saying that he didn't need to take out his Spain eraser to win the eraser game.

He only needed to use Switzerland, which he did.

AND, since I couldn't play the eraser game for nuts, Kenneth helped me.

AND HE LOST.


















Like how Switzerland beat South Korea in the World Cup match 2-0.

Bo Wei was smiling like an idiot and I was eh... a little flustered.















RAH.

Maths today was highly hilarious.

I think I'm liking that class more and more. HOHO (:

Alright I'm using the computer to charge my MP3 which I don't think I can live without when I'm studying. So, technically, I'm not supposed to be here.

But who cares.

CDC was alright today. It ended far too late for my liking though.

Aye. Studying can be fun but sometimes it can achingly torturous.

CRESCENT ON SATURDAY! (: (: (:

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Friday, July 21, 2006.

Sometimes PW is a bane to my bones whilst at other times it can be so immensely interesting that I won't mind embarking on it instantly.

This time round, the former's at work.

EoM. Evaluation of Material.

My goodness I don't really like you, EoM, you know that?!



Today's Racial Harmony Day.

I have been in a listless class with zero enthusiasm when it comes to things of such for 4 years. I'm surprised when people express enthusiastic interest in wanting to don on different cultural costumes for this commemorative day.

My class would be two rows of neat yellow bananas whilst the classes amongst us would be colourful, vibrant, energetic and all the what-nots, with the exception of a few.

OH WELL. I just have different tastes and preferences.

ECONS ECONS ECONS!

Which reminds me, we have a very good and nice and reliable Econs tutor (: All the young and new teachers as well as the old and boring ones should learn from her :D

Econs reminds me of Maths.

And yesterday's Maths lecture was FUNNY.

Aside from the ultimate lame notions the lecturer came up with (which were the essence of the lecture anyway), I was occupied with laughing at something else.

All I can say is, poor Melvin. Haha.

Although it isn't very nice and every normal person can sense it, it is still pretty inevitable, especially since oh well. I think I shan't say it here.

The Human Geog lecture notes are quite a chore to read. Too many words and too many unclear pictures. AYE.






















Pictures speak a thousand words don't they?

Everytime someone talks about Hong Kong, I'd get very excited thinking that a single trip there allows me be all-knowledgeable about that country when I know only 0.1% of what it's really worth and what it truly holds.

I think I have a rather horrible tongue and I tend to say many many many wrong things which people around me will never say. It makes me think WHY WHY WHY do I allow this pathetic careless tongue of mine to slip? I think I hurt and betray the trust of many along the way of my doing so too.

The thing is that I don't realise until I think back really hard or when people point out that fact to me, and a very begrudging me might I add.

It's hard for me to keep my opinions to myself most of the time. I don't know why, but it's just too darn hard. I have a tendency to like to tell people things. Next time you hear something you think you shouldn't be hearing, please tell me and help me tame this stupid ignorant tongue of mine which accuses but never admits.

Clara says I'm very judgemental, to which I admit, but with shame. Yes, I tend to judge people a lot. First impressions are significant and they are very lasting in my opinions of someone. I look at things very subjectively too, which isn't good. Isabelle you've got be be more objective in your views! AND AND AND.

Aye. Once an impression forms it's very very very hard to shake it off. Unless that person does a revoluntionary thing on a small scale that totally changes my view of him/her, then I can be a little swayed. Impressions tend to stay, and I suck at changing them.



Self-reproach is good.

Makes me think of all the areas that I've got to improve in.

Complacency is another HUGE thing. I hate my complacent attitude. :/

I think I'm too ostentatious too. But then again, I think everyone is.

Alright I think I've got to stop living in self-denial and start to learn how to take things with a pinch of salt, marking them as learning experiences in life's journey.

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Saturday, July 15, 2006.

The weekend crashes when homework piles and when Common Tests are just round the corner.

I'm very unhappy with my Common Test results, particularly Chinese and Literature, and I aim to pick myself up!

And here's the horrendous workload for this weekend.

1) Mathematical Induction Tutorial 8
2) Mathematical Induction Assignment 8
3) Physical Geography Tutorial 7
4) Human Geography Term 3 Tutorial 1
5) Literature Essay On Practical Criticism on Great Expectations
6) Globalisation/Current Affairs newspaper article for GP
7) Economics Tutorial 6 Section C - Mini Case Study
8) Economics Tutorial 6 Section D - Essay Question 2

I woke up near eleven this morning, took two newspaper articles, wrote my Literature essay which I brainstormed last night, did my Physical Geog Tutorial followed by the Human Geog Tutorial, and therefore, here I am.

Skiving. (:

I did my Maths last night! Althought I couldn't do some parts, I find myself rather accomplished.

OH WELL, BUCK UP FOR COMMON TESTS EVERYONE, AND STRIVE TO THROW THE 'S's and 'U's OUT OF THE WINDOW!

Yippee!

Alright that was retarded.

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Thursday, July 13, 2006.

Went home today with Kenneth & Bo Wei.

At the bus-stop, I laughed the hardest I have ever laughed in, eh, this week.

The hardest I laughed was yesterday with Renee and Vithiya. Rosie & Marco :D (inside joke)

Then today, my impression of Kenneth was totally changed. Well, not totally, but there's a very different side to him which I never knew existed.

My goodness it's darn funny.

And the distorted versions of In The End by Linkin Park plus the many distorted songs La Bi Xiao Xin distorted were darn hilarious too.

AND.

I'm quite sure I'm going to fail my Maths test. If I get a double digit score I would already be deliriously happy.

I MUST CONQUER THE COMMON TEST H2 MATHS PAPER!

From today it's going to be Econs, Geog, Lit, Maths flooding my table and my mind (I hope).

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Tuesday, July 11, 2006.

I have something to share, something I learnt during Maths lecture today.



























Say, doesn't the lecturer have a weird sense of humour?

(:

And, I didn't even know that Mr. Lee got married.

The best part is, Mr. Loh's the bestman!

HO HO HO.







I just find it highly amusing (:

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Monday, July 10, 2006.

I feel like posting photos. So here goes.

Vithiya, Josephine and I were a little bit over-the-top today we decided that hugging the (dirty) pole was great old fun! And so, we did.






















As tempted as I am, I know that Vithiya will slaughter me if I post the very eh-GLAM picture of her sitting on the wall, so, I shan't. Instead, let me bring your attention to...

The toilet sign. A very very pretty sign, I must say (:





















A little before that, when Jo and I were literally bored to tears during the non-existent chinese lesson, we resorted to eh... taking photos of our work. Mine, and hers (:























And yeah, SAMSUNG UNITE! My favourite brand, cause it's Korean. HOHO.






















One more thing.



























Do you see who I see? (:






















Spot him again! And yes, if you've gotten it, it's just Good Old Mr. Carrot, the orange bodied soft toy with two green sticks of hair :D


No homework for the day!

But still, I need to embark on studying for Common Tests which are going to plague my first week of August. Aye Aye Aye.

There's loads to cover for geography, loads of concepts to comprehend and understand for economics, two thick books to swallow for literature, and 8 chapters of mathematics to keep my brain fried with numbers and symbols and graphs.

Bother, bother.

This is the typical life of a student. :(

By the way, Wang Eh Nam Ja is so coitally engrossed that I couldn't bear watching it any longer. Don't watch it, if you ever think along the lines of wanting to. DON'T. Even though there's Lee Jun Ki in there, it's too... well, gross.

By the way, let me show you a glimpse of what you do in Maths lectures.

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Basically, you try your very very very very very very best to listen.

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Saturday, July 08, 2006.

Everytime I look at this empty space I never really know how to pen or rather, type down what and how I really feel and what is it that I really hope to express through a post.

I think blogging has lost its flavour, and it has defeated the purpose if everyone blogs about seemingly trivial everyday and mundane stuff. There has never really been a blog around that I've gone to and that makes me want to carry on with whatever the person has posted all the time I come online (which is very often, and I'm guilty of that).

Maybe it's because I can never get myself to accept the way some people blog. There are times when I'd read a blog and feel pathetic about myself because of all the good old fun things and friends that others have and I don't. Well, the reason why I don't like reading blogs is because it hurts to see and read about how much fun others are having when you're sulking and wallowing in self-pity about your restraints and concerns and troubles.

OH WELL.

I feel pathetic and superficial everytime I know I'm not sincere when it comes to blogging and writing things which are artificially dumb and enough just to smooth that skin-deep comfort that I need smoothing with. Telling myself that I'd be happy and well and alright very soon doesn't work most of the time. And the pathetic exclamation marks (!) after every seemingly keen sentence. I wonder how keen I am sometimes.

It was last Sunday when I went for Sunday School that I kept really quiet, and at night on MSN, a friend asked if everything was well because I wasn't acting my usual self. What is my usual self? It might be normal for me to be yakking and whining and complaining and proclaiming about my toilet callings, but, there are times when you feel this inner frustration that you'd really rather keep things to yourself.

[I've taken this part away.]

There are times I feel utterly pathetic, like that fateful day when my parents came home and saw me in front of the television, watching American Idol.

I only sat down in front of the television for a mere 5 minutes for a little break, and had only heard one guy sing, and had to be reprimanded for not being studious and not studying like my ever-studious and serious brother. She really succeeded in pissing me off, and I felt so ruddily maligned that I almost teared in front of her. I don't see the big deal in watching 5 minutes of television, especially when people in school talk about this show and that that I never know anything about because I wasn't allowed to turn on the television at night.

They'd prohibit us to watching shows that they enjoy watching. Otherwise, it's a no. It only becomes a temporal yes when holidays zoom in and out in a flash.

Talking about that, my parents say that I don't have a lot of self-discipline. They always tend to compare my little sister and I to my brother.

If they had any other son I think they'd think that we are actually pretty good children. Sure, we have our rebellious ways and horrible sides. I don't think I go out a lot, and I've never gone out on a saturday with friends before. NEVER. People talk about outings and gatherings as if they always have been a part of their lives.

I'd be immensely relieved and happy if I receive a nod from them. Everytime I ask if I could go out, they'd ask. "Guy or girl?" "From Crescent or JJ?" I know it's for my own good, but sometimes I wish I would have that little bit more freedom.

There was once I went out for dinner (the 3rd time in my life) with people outside of my family. It was a dinner at Adam Centre, and then an ice-cream visit to Island Creamery. I enjoyed myself with the people (most of) whom I've grown up with in church. The thing I can't comprehend is that the moment my dad came to pick me up the first thing he asked was, "Why so late?"

Why so late? Why so late? Why do you ask me that? Why don't you ask the rest of them who talked and talked the night away and them who didn't not have such worriers for parents? It is in parents' nature to worry, but I don't see it as any fault of mine for making the entire outing turn out so late.

I didn't feel at ease when the clock ticked nine, not even when it ticked half past eight. The only comfort I had was that I was with the people whom I have grown up with, people whom my parents know personally and have seen them grow. It's just annoying that for everyone else a night out like this seems normal but my parents can't seem to comprehend that we do need such gatherings once in a while.

I love my parents a lot, really, but they tend to keep too a tight reign on certain things which I think are perfectly fine. I won't make a trip down to Jurong Point which is 10 minutes of walking distance from my house for something I need to get without asking my father's permission first. Even back then in my old house whenever I wanted to go downstairs to do my work in the function room, I'd have to seek for permission if not I'd be plagued by guilt for not returning home earlier.

Gosh I've talked and whined and digressed far too much that the scrollbar's really really small. Having deleted what I previously typed this morning, I'd reinstate my point on educators who are unfeeling and insensitive.

First things first. If you are unable to respect your students, you don't expect them to give you the respect you want. And you won't be given the respect you ought to have, for sure, after the horrible words you've said.

How would you feel if it was you who was sitting in his shoes and getting picked on like that just because you weren't taking down notes but listening to what the teacher has to say? Shouldn't you be proud of students who bother to listen and absorb and then bother to copy notes from another friend. Knowing him, that is what he is likely to do. But no, you shot off at him and made your sarcasm ascend to a higher level until you are almost capable of reaching the epitome of being a sarcasm-spewing machine.

Since there isn't one in the market now, you could be the first to produce it you know?

If that's what a teacher and an educator can be like, I worry for students who have to be put through the torture of future generations of teachers who end up using sarcasm as a way of gaining control and good behaviour over students. You make students fear you instead of showing reverence to you. Who's going to defy your orders in the way you deem as defying orders when they know they're going to be lectured in front of a whole lecture theatre of fellow students?

You're at the zenith and I look forward to the day you descend to the nadir.

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Wednesday, July 05, 2006.

I'm talking to Ji-Shen now and he put the chicken picture I drew for him as the display picture! Yay! I love my drawing (:

Germ got investitured today! Although I didn't want to attend the investiture, I'm still glad for you, girl. Manpower something something I forgot. She's going to have the power to decide to allocate tasks or what-nots for the different people in different houses when an event comes up. Maybe I didn't get that role correctly but it's something like that.

Still, Germ, CONGRATULATIONS (:

Do ex-06A02 and current 06A03 proud! :D

Ponned my CCA today cause my (3x7=21!) people didn't go. HAHA DON'T CARE.

I came home, bathed, did my GP homework, stuffed my earphones into my ears, took out INTRODUCTION TO ROCK TYPES, crawled into bed, starting reading, and my eyes started drooping.

Must have been the pathetic 5hr 15min sleep I had because of the match I watched and got disappointed with. HOW CAN THE ITALIANS ACHIEVE THAT?!

I was so so so dead sure there would be a penalty shoot-out. Then there was none cause apparently the Italians managed to salvage the entire game and their dominant glory from henceforth by scoring 2 goals in the last 3 minutes!

When the 1st goal got in I was momentarily bewildered and stunned and was thinking, "Die Germany you're dead. HURRY SCORE IF NOT YOU'D REALLY BE DEAD!"

And just a fateful minute later, some Italian guy scored again and you could see how frantic Germany was in trying to really pick themselves out. BUT. RAH. They didn't manage to. And my morning was ruined. I was so sure Germany would win and before I slept to wake up at 3am my mind was chanting, "Germany Germany!"

Rah what the my AH MA Yao Yue Qi is sad as I am :( So is Vithiya and the whole of Germany :(

Alright never mind shall not dwell on Germany's defeat. They still have the 3rd place play-off and I hope they win mightily. Germany Germany!

Oh well. JJ's darn flexible. They know that almost the entire school population (I'm making my own assumption) watches the World Cup and thus school would start at 10am for us on Monday! Never heard of such a system so flexible but it's good.

This World Cup is so full of surprises I don't even know where to start.

Anyway let's talk about school. I'm a little euphoric now typing and typing.

GP was as usual, on the dry topic of Globalization and we got back our very first TCA. I got 18.5/30? Quite pathetic as it builds on the fact that he'd been highly lenient in his marking. AYE.

Afterwhich was a half-an-hour break. PORRIDGE + EGG + TAIWANESE SAUSAGE.

Marvellous combination, I tell you.

Geography was next and we didn't even have a tutorial cause those who had to do their re-test took it and the rest of us were slacking away. I was doing the Revision Exercise on Binomial Expansion and A.P. & G.P. then gave up after the 3rd question. Hah.

Then it was Econs! We got a Youth Day mini treat from Miss Lim. Woo (: I like her, she's good and clear in her teaching and she answers and addresses our questions well.

The one hour break after that was spent in the library with Xiu Ling, Beatrice, Clara, Vit, Josephine, Kenneth & Bo Wei.

Was reading Order of the Phoenix and laughing to myself. I think at this rate it'd take me till the end of J2 to complete the entire book. Bah.

Maths tutorial. Firstly, Clara and I went in late and missed the entire drama of the class shifting their tables back and leaving a huge gap in the middle. Ho ho. By the time we got in the classroom looked normal.

And for once I felt so relieved cause I could do the convergence question with a little hinting from Mdm Khoo! Sometimes it's possible to abhor Maths, sometimes it isn't. I didn't then, but I think that abhorrence will come back to me very very very soon.

I'm still talking to Ji-Shen and have never held such a long online conversation with him. Quite a feat, I must say.

AND, I talked online to Zhu Qing for 4 hours on Monday morning and at 4am when it was going to rain my mum woke up, came into my room, and lectured me in chinese.

"Are you crazy it's 4am and you haven't slept! Do you know how detrimental that is to your body!"

So I had to say my goodbye and log off. :(

I rotted positively and wasted a lot of brain cells on Monday alright. Woke up at 12pm and bathed. Then did my chinese composition and Econs essay in one sitting and then the night was devoted to completing my PW Written Report Draft 1.

Pretty pleased with the WR, I must say, though comments await us tomorrow when PW tutorial comes. OH NO.

I need to study. I feel like a lousy procrastinator and slacker. GAH.

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Sunday, July 02, 2006.

I can't blog anymore. Don't know why but I don't feel like I'm typing as ISABELLE TAN when I blog.

Alright never mind. I think some people deserve a piece of my mind, or rather, pieces of some minds of other people too.

I don't know how I'm going to express this, but I seriously think that some people ought to be more accountable for their actions and be more responsible because the level of responsibility they hold now is pathetically at a pathetic low. I thought that the people around me had more calibre than that, and when they say that you should never judge a book by its cover, it might sound cliched and all that but it's highly true.

I had my PW meeting with Xiu Ling and Bo Wei yesterday. What's new.

We sat our butts off from 10.15am to 4.45pm doing the Written Report and thinking of how to structure our sentences with proper grammer and vocabulary and content.

What a chore and it fried our brain cells so by 3.00pm we were half-functioning.

BUT, we managed to finish eh, 3/4 of it.

Not a huge accomplishment because I had wanted us to finish all of it but there was no way. No more will, no more drive leads to no more work (:

Oh man this page has been stale on my laptop for the past 3 hours and it's 2.15 am now.

ALRIGHT BYE.

I really can't blog. There's some mental block :(

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